MAY . 2023
A dream awaking ~
May is an oval
a shawl around
your shoulders
& it is light
the color of first dawn
the color of a dream
awaking before our eyes
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May: you let yourself hope, dream.
Okay, there is something lifting. Lifting like how steam or fog lifts, not like wings. Lifting how the night lifts at dawn or how a bell lifts in your hand or how the top of a mushroom lifts out of the earth.
Do you know what I mean?
Lifts how your head lifts when you hear a good sound, when you sense the light has shifted, when something inspires you to.
Do you know what hope means?
It is a verb (action) and it is a noun (person, place, or thing).
Hope is actually Trust in a different set of robes. Hope is Trust dressed in starlight, wild lily of the valley woven into her hair, barefooted & braless & smelling like the edge of a cliff: a little salty, a little like pebble, like a bird wing & the root of yarrow.
The word hope is rooted in the late Old English word, hopa which means "confidence in the future.”
Now do you know what hope means? What it means for you?
Confidence in the future… you have had months of dreaming & waking only to revise the dream.
And now May: where all veils are lifted for a moment, before closing again until the end of autumn. May’s veils are lifted & listening for you to say it outloud: to say I hope this ______ happens; I hope for this______.
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Nine is infinite & in that, it is lonely. All multiples of nine add back up to nine, forever & ever, into every possible future. Infinity is Loneliness in a different set of robes. It is lonely because it is every possible future in one long loop. It is lonely until some one of these many possibilities is asked for, is chosen by you.
You have known the lonely side of infinity for quite some time, & now it is time to have confidence that in the endless loop of infinity, there is also possibility. But you must ask for it, you must name that which can be possible.
So your job this month is to simply acknowledge that you have been strong in your loneliness (whose roots are in the Proto-Indo-European *io-no meaning "one, unique”), because seated within that loneliness was your ability to dream. And now you must turn to the other side of infinity: the belly that is full of possibility.
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The lifting comes from you saying your dream, your wish aloud. You know what it is now. Say it loud enough for Hope with her scent of a bird wing, her shoulders crested in ancient stars, to hear you.
(Have you ever watched the classic 1984 film: The NeverEnding Story? Maybe this is a month to. Maybe it will give more salient metaphor to what I am describing.)
May, you will have confidence in Hope’s ability to reach you. Things don’t happen right away, but they are happening, they are. May, Hope will be slowly walking towards you, with that dream-desire you finally admitted to, held in her open hand.
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Onto this month’s almanac…
And oh, it is a wonderful one in that it features special Akashic wisdom from the ever-lovely Corinna Barsan.
Enjoy ~
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